I had good reasons for not revealing my real identity: to escape from too much stress. My 76-year old father-in-law has been really, really ill. I don�t want to bore you with all the details, but my family and I have been going through very hard times since the beginning of February. My dad-in-law (Can you say that?? In German you can�) almost died and he�s still very, very weak. He was lying on his back for more than 6 weeks after he had had to undergo life-threatening surgery, because he had lots of blood in his lung. He�s got only one kidney anyway, because they took the other one out when he had suffered from kidney cancer 10 years ago. So everything was extremely critical, and he still isn�t fine NOW�
These circumstances might have led to the fact that 2 months ago I wasn�t as friendly and kind as I used to be. 
I know that some users (e. g. Sylvie and Aimee) are very angry with me, because they think that I�m just playing a game, but I really didn�t want to make fun of people. I sincerely hope that the majority of members can forgive me what I�ve done. After all, I�m only human � just like everybody else!
Julieta has once told me that I was kind of a role model in this site. I replied to her that I don�t want to be a role model at all. And by cheating you I have definitely not acted like a role model� I would really have liked to let many of you know about the truth, because there are definitely lots of friends I have been missing whole-heartedly.
I simply was at odds with myself!! The problem was that if too many members had known about my real identity, I would have had to keep in touch again with so many people, and my time and nerves just didn �t allow that. I hope you �ll get the picture.
I apologise to all of you for having disappointed you by putting the wool over everyone�s eyes, but you can be assured that I had the strong wish to protect myself somehow. I probably chose a completely wrong way to do it, however, I couldn�t think of any other possibilities at the time�
Lots of love, hugs and kisses to those who still like me � Silke
Some of them have really disappointed me when I used to be _ladybird_, including Victor! We had a biiiiiiiiiiiiig argument and I just didn �t want to be part of ESLP anymore.
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And thank you very much for your warm words, too. They do me the world of good. 
